Life’s ok right now. I mean ok in a good way too.  We laugh daily at Elena.  We coo in delight at Brandt’s latest development. (Hey look, he can clap!)  I realized last night that we have left the thing called “newlywed” and are settling into the dreaded “middle ages”.  Kind of sad, but I guess it’s time to move a long.  It’s sad because I have this fear that life will suddenly pass me by.  I’ll be 80 years old in the “elderly care facility” and I’ll say to the young CNA who’s tending my bedsore, “Oh life just passed by in a flash”.  She will blink and say “Yeah whatever” and roll her eyes at the candy striper feeding me applesauce.  Then they will giggle to themselves and think that they will be young forever.

So what I’m trying to say, is that I’m trying to just enjoy.  Life. Stuff. Out-to-eats with friends. Cheesecake. Days when you get nothing done. Days when you conquer it all.  Days when you splurge and days when the generic brand is too expensive.  Oh and the mommy tip I learned the last days. Took me awhile but I learned.  So often I wanted alone time on the computer or something.  So when the kids were busy, yea!!! I would surf the web or read and it was way cool.

  But at the end of the day it was so not the highlight of my day.  Almost always my highlight was something goofy Elena said. Or hanging around the bar after supper. Or all piling into the truck to test the moisture level of the corn.  (Ok, I made that one up)  Sometimes I think alone time is over-rated.  So now if you call in the middle of the afternoon I will always be baking a cake for the neighbors, or donating my time at Water Street Rescue Mission.  That was a joke too.  I still xanga.   EEEE that’s the first smiley I ever put on a post. Seems kinda cheesy.

But can you imagine if someone asked you what the best part of your week was and you said.  “Well on Wednesday I got 3 whole interrupted hours so i like was on Xanga for two hours and on Myspace for one.  It totally rocked dude.  And then I watched these wicked awesome videos on Youtube for a while.  I seriously hope I get more days like that soon.”   AAAugh it makes me feel like a pile of rubish just reading it.

Ok I just read that and it sounded preachy.  Oh well that’s a risk I’ll take. Sorry.

Soooo I’ll end this thing with an Elena quote:

“He’s such a pretty princess”  about Brandt at bedtime

If you have never been a stay at home mom, I really highly recommend it.  Seriously, at this stage in life I get so much time to think.  So If you like thinking and digesting things over and over in your head, this is the life for you.

It usually goes:  Thinking: about the fires in Greece

Thinking: about the families of the Coal Miners

Thinking: about this whole culture we find ourselves in

Thinking: what it means to be a disciple.

Thinking: Why Did My Bath-Towels All Turn Green?

and in-between there’s lot’s of tiny little thoughts about supper, dirty diapers, shopping lists, changing the flower bed plans, crumbs all over the floor, dirt in the bathtub kind of thoughts.  I think in some ways you lose yourself being a SAHM, but in a lot of ways you find who you really are.

Side Note:  Never wash your new khacki bath-towels with a navy blanket purchased in Guatemala.  It just does not work. They will turn a bright aqua color.  Then these aqua towels will beed over everything else, so all your towels will be the same muddy-aqua hue.
Will I never learn? I can see mom shaking her head at my inexperience….